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My roommate is into BDSM. Fine. I couldn't care less about his sex life. He met two women at a BDSM club whom he regularly "plays" with. They enjoy being subjected to what he calls "erotic torments." Fine. But he also watches BDSM pornography. Since he has no way of knowing if the women in the BDSM porn enjoy the "erotic torments" they're subjected to, I don't think it's fine to view this pornography. These women could have been forced or they could be doing it because they're in financial distress. Not fine. Therefore, I say it is impossible to enjoy any BDSM porn ethically. Do you agree? --He Enjoys Loathsome Pornography

Yes, HELP, I don't. Wait. No, HELP, I do.

Goddamn English language.

What I mean to say, HELP, is that it can be ethically problematic to enjoy BDSM porn of unknown provenance. I agree with you there. But I disagree with your conclusion that it's therefore impossible to enjoy any BDSM porn whatsoever. It rests on the assumption that no BDSM porn producers are using models who are just as turned on by making BDSM porn as your roommate is by watching it.

Technology--credit cards, digital video production, the Internet--has revolutionized the porn industry. Yes, there are still big mainstream porn studios pumping out product, most of it nonfetish/kink. But today there's also tons of fetish/kink porn being produced by and for fetishists of all stripes. Many of these smaller porn producers are superethical about the use and abuse of their models. That's particularly the case with producers of BDSM porn, most of whom are acutely sensitive to charges of brutality because, well, their products can seem so brutal.

"In my experience," says Lauren of Two Big Meanies (, a small BDSM porn outfit based in Seattle, "folks in the BDSM scene are much, much more scrupulous about negotiating consent, sexually and otherwise, than people in almost any other walk of life." TBM's owners--Lauren and Russell--don't just make BDSM porn for perverts like your roommate; they're BDSM players themselves, and they often tap regular play partners as models. As a consequence, says Lauren, "informed consent and mutual pleasure are the building blocks of what we do."

And how does scrupulousness about consent inform TBM's treatment of their sometimes long-suffering models? "For us personally, we make a point of letting our models know that we want them to enjoy and get off on the shoots while providing them with ways to express and protect their own boundaries," says Lauren.

So, before you freak out about your roommate's porn preferences--and frankly, HELP, you could care a bit less about his sex life--you might want to ask him where he's getting his BDSM porn.

I'm 23 and have been with my boyfriend for 15 months. About six months into the relationship I became pregnant. It was a lot sooner than we planned for, but we decided to raise our child together and move in together. About three months ago, when I was six months pregnant, I was cleaning out our shared computer and found a profile of my boyfriend on He had been e-mailing a female in her 40s, exchanged naked pictures with her, and said he wanted to meet her for "discreet 1-on-1." I confronted him and he insisted he never met up with her and was only on that Web site because "we were having problems."

I was upset but decided to give him another chance because I love him. Then a month ago I found another personal ad he placed. No naked pics this time, but the ad was also for a "mature curvy woman." To make things worse, it was Valentine's Day and I was eight months pregnant! He said he sent the last e-mail because he was "bored" since he is unemployed.

Dan, I'm still with him but there are doubts in my head about trusting him. I love him and want to raise our child together, but I don't know if what he is doing is an addiction or if he's just playing me for a fool. Should I DTMFA? Give the relationship a chance for the baby's sake? Please help, Dan! --Problematic Reality Engulfs Girl

If the pressures of a baby on the way drive your boyfriend into the bat wings of curvy older women, PREG, he's going to be deflowering goats by the side of the road once he's confronted with the pressures of a baby on the premises.

I'm sorry, PREG, and your letter's a heartbreaker, but I can't offer you the help you need. Because what you need is a time machine that can whisk you all the way back to August 2006. Then nine-months-older-and-wiser PREG could order nine-months-younger-and-dumber PREG to have an abortion or, better yet, not to have sex with that unemployed asshole at all. But at this stage all I can tell you to do is dump the motherfucker already.

And I hope you have family nearby, PREG, because you're going to need their help.

I discovered Savage Love only recently, and I was intrigued by the following statement from a column you wrote in December: "While most of us learn to live with and occasionally conquer our fears without eroticizing them, a number of us respond to sexual fears or traumas by incorporating them into our erotic imaginations." My wife gets totally turned on by fantasizing about me with another guy. She doesn't really want me to do it with another guy, she just gets off--hard--to the mental imagery.

She hasn't been able to understand why she has these fantasies, and why they get her so hot, especially since she doesn't want them to move from fantasy to reality. Me, I don't care that much as to why--I just enjoy it. She, however, agonizes over it the next day, wondering why oh why. It turns out she started having these fantasies when she was in a previous relationship with a guy who had sex with men before, and, she suspects, during their relationship (yes, she's since had an HIV test). She has some fairly powerful abandonment issues, and apparently her man-on-me fantasies have become thoroughly entangled with her fears that I will cheat on her with some dude. Which I won't, because I really and truly don't want to.

So my question is: now what? The game we play is fun in moderation, and I'd hate to give it up entirely. But I'm leery of doing anything that plays on the deep-seated fears of the woman I love. --Not One to Get All Yappy

Understanding what experience inspired her fantasies--if that experience inspired her fantasies--won't make them go away. Since your wife will have to live with those deep-seated fears regardless, NOTGAY, it seems to me that she might as well derive some pleasure from them. So keep things the way they are.

Guys who can't come from oral sex alone unload in this week's Web extra, which you can read at

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